Fly in the middle of the pandemic

“Is it even possible to be back to Germany?”

… is the most asked question, not only by friends and family, but also by me, to myself. I kept asking myself that question not only just now, but constantly everyday, from the very first day I left Germany until I finally am here, again, after more than a year.

I had been waiting for this flight since July 21, 2019 – the day I was in Vietnam again after my AuPair year. Because of some paper issues, which I might write about later on, I had to go home instead of starting my study in Germany right away. However, despite the Corona pandemic and the pandemic of my anxiety, I could still fly.

KEEP FIGHTING AGAINST THE PANDEMIC

In the middle of July 2019, I was sitting on the flight from Europe heading Hanoi, holding the cup of coffee the flight attendant gave me, crying.

In the middle of August 2019, I could not pass a day without staring at the clouds and let my head flow to these good old days when I was in Germany, fretting.

In the middle of December 2019, I did not have a single reason to celebrate Christmas, since it is not a tradition in my country, being empty.

In the middle of February 2020, I bought my flight ticket for the summer semester at the university of Passau, fulfilling.

In the middle of March 2020, I found out the university was on lockdown, crying.

I, again, bursted out into tears in disappointment: when the world pandemic started to break out, so as my anxiety pandemic.

In the middle of August, I, again, received my student visa and one month later, I finally flew. The pandemic is still a thing, so as my anxiety. However, the belief I have in myself is, too, something that could fly higher, spread wider than any of these above.

I have made my first very struggle step. And believe me, there might be lockdowns these days, but as long as you keep your faith, nothing can ever lock you down.